The Gratitude Challenge (Day 17): Dance With My Father

"Write about something you feel grateful for in your life today."

Ever had one of those days when you felt like you wanted to take a break from adulthood? Back when I didn't have to worry about a single thing. How I wish that today I'd be a little girl tagging along with my Tatay.

My father passed away ten years ago. But I just have this longing for him today. And I want to honor his being a father to me.

I am so grateful with the life he gave me. For raising me the way he and my mother did. For being the best father. For being a very good provider who did not spoil me and my siblings. He kept us grounded. We all turned out well.

He wasn't the vocal nor touchy kind of father. I never heard him say he loved me. We did not hug. That was the way he was. And even if those were missing, I felt very secure. What he lacked in that area, he made up in the rest. He was always present in my life. There were times when I wished that his attention wasn't on me. He was the disciplinarian that I needed.

I would not forget the time he comforted me during my surprise 18th birthday party. I threw a tantrum then because I so did not want a party and my mother went ahead with it. I wouldn't come out of our house. He spoke to me and because I loved him so much I showed up at the party.

Back then, he was the most important person in my life.

It dawned on me that what I felt towards him is what fear of the Lord is. I loved him so much that I didn't want to do anything bad to hurt him. I fear him in the most loving way.

Psalm 147:11 (New International Version)

11 the LORD delights in those who fear him,
who put their hope in his unfailing love.

Whenever I hear Luther Vandross' song, Dance With My Father, I remember my Tatay very fondly. How I wish he'd see how my life turned out after he left us. How I'd love for him to meet Jed and introduce him to his first grandchild.

I miss him every single day.

But I know that wherever he is right now, he is at peace.

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